“Come on in where nightmares are the best part of my day.” ~Ultimate Warrior
Where I Have Been
Many come to me in search
Of inspiration for
All the little things they think
Makes their life feel like “war”
How to deal with asshole bosses
Work which gives them stress
Family that cause them pain
And fears that they possess
I’m asked by them to lead the way
“Teach me, great warrior!
Tell me what I have to do
To make my spirit stir!”
I chuckle at the irony
They ask to show the way
Yet they don’t see that nightmares are
The best part of my day
That now an asshole boss is a
Nice, warm thought I’d embrace
That family who yell and scream
Bring smiles to my face
That fear is something I long for
The days when hands would shake
The days I’d tremble and my stress
At night kept me awake
Fear: a long dead acquaintance
Who with time I now miss
They ask to show the way but it’s
Straight into the abyss
They want to be inspired but
They never focus on
The fact that sitting on a cloud
Did not increase my brawn
That thinking happy thoughts and singing
Bible hymns did not
Give me all the focus, strength
And grace that I have got
“Show the way” they all request
But when I walk them down
Directly to where I have been
They all recoil and frown
“It is so sad! It’s so tragic!”
They all gulp and exclaim
And I respond, “This awful place
Is right where I became
This figure that you think is so
Inspiring, my friend
It’s where I burn and break and tear
And suffer, crack and bend
It’s where I grow and learn, adapt
It’s where I grow stronger
It is my comfort zone now, where
I hope nightmares last longer”
“Gosh” the normals do exclaim
And politely excuse
Themselves and go in search of ways
That have a bit less blues
No worry, I think to myself
I do prefer the peace
And quiet in that dark abyss
Where 1st World Problems cease
