The Warrior’s Choice

31 Aug

“It’s not that easy,” I’ve been told
When I use the word, “Choice”
They tell me they have no control
Of the tone in their voice

When they are mad, when they are sad
When something makes them scared
Choosing to control their feelings
Very few have dared

They don’t get what they want and so
They let their weakness flow
They pout, they cry, they whine, they snap
And wallow in their woe

“Why don’t you choose to fight your angst?”
I ask them even though
I know exactly why, because
They do not choose to grow

“It’s not that easy!” they reply
And since ease is not there
They act as though I’m silly and
For my words they don’t care

I think about the ultrasound
The doctor stares at screen
My wife still lays there hopeful but
I already do glean

I read the doctor’s posture and
His tone before he talks
I know the baby’s heart has stopped
As mine now loudly knocks

My wife asks if he sees both legs
He says, “There’s something worse”
I see the truth upon his face
As well as on the nurse

And though it’s “not that easy,” I
Choose to employ control
Instead of sorrow, I choose grace
And hold my wife, console

I hug her crying parents but
No tears adorn my eyes
Later, I console my mother
As she wails and cries

I never lose control because
My choice was resolute
Just as for years I have now done
This choice I won’t refute

And weak normals will doubt and say
“You’re in shock or denial!”
I waste no words on them because
No challenge, test or trial

Will ever hone them, forge them into
Something strong and stern
These doubting normals only do
For ease and comfort yearn

Yes, it would have been easy
To cry and wail and scream
But ease to Warriors exists
Only in far off dreams…

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5 Responses to “The Warrior’s Choice”

  1. poeticjourney August 31, 2013 at 9:07 am #

    Beautiful poem, broke my heart at the same time. Sorry for y’all lost. God Bless You

  2. Sara Wales August 31, 2013 at 9:25 am #

    Very sorry for your loss my friend. Keeping you and your family in my prayers.

  3. Tatsat August 31, 2013 at 4:02 pm #

    Outstanding!

  4. dontchawannadream September 1, 2013 at 4:38 pm #

    I’m glad you’re back, Miro.
    I love your poetry so much! It’s always so well written, so REAL and intense.
    Also, I’m very sorry for you and Luana.
    …Reading this poem reminded me of one song, “Gone Too Soon” by Daughtry. It’s one of my favorite on Break The Spell.
    Une grande pensée pour vous!

  5. Sue Dreamwalker October 7, 2013 at 10:06 am #

    Miro, sending you my condolences my friend to you and yours….Sending some Healing thoughts x Sue

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